So I am sitting here today, like a lot of days lately wondering why didn't I chose something fun to be my career...I could have been an actress, a jouranlist, a photographer, a ballerina (lol, probably not), or an astronaut, but I chose Accounting & Finance? Really?! Ever since I could remember I loved math and problem solving and I still do, but I just feel so blah lately. I remember how good it felt to win the math bee in the second grade and always finish my times tables first, or to be able to leave class on thursdays and go on field trips with the PC kids, but being smart- well, it just doesn't feel that way anymore...
2 years ago I was all about becoming a successful business woman, a big wig and my career, my title, my salary, all of that really defined success for me. Today, I feel so completely different. As I sit here in the office thinking of how far I have already come at such a young age, I just feel confused. I want to have babies soon, I want to be able to get up go to work, leave work, not answer emails after I leave or ALWAYS be that go to person for projects. I want to leave work and really leave it if ya know what I mean. But then I wonder, is that what I really want? Did I work this hard, get my MBA and all of that to be a pee-on, hell no! I just want to find the balance. Maybe a job where there are several go to people, they solicit work life balance, I come in, I stay busy with challenging and dynamic projects, but then I go home and leave the work till the next day...I know those jobs are few and far between, but they are out there and gosh darn it, that is where I am ultimately going to end up. I want to be successful, I want to continue my move up the corporate ladder, I want all of this, but...I would also love to open my own business, or do well at my own gig, but that takes great ideas and a big risk- so until I get that einstein idea and take that leap, I will focus on the now. I guess all of this really boils down to...where do I want to be in 10 years? Career wise, I have no idea honestly. I can tell you what I think sounds appealing....
I want to be in a stable company working in a VP type role, maybe 10 miles or so from home, come in, make my valuable contribution for the day, and head home to my happy family. I know some of you are saying dream on and that's ok, because ultimately it is my destiny and so far I have done a pretty good job at acheiving my goals, so I will achieve this one too, I just have to be patient- which is one of my biggest weaknesses....and trust that everything will work out the way it is supposed to. Until then, I will just continue working hard, finding my peace in Hot Yoga on tuesday nights and let life just happen, I know whatever happens, we will figure it out.
So, where do you see yourself in 10 years?
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