I was reading one of my favorite blogs this morning and almost thought it was a post straight from my mouth. It was a moment of self reflection. This morning the husband and I had a little spat. He was looking for something, which isn't unusual b/c he tends to misplace things and started going through drawwers and leaving them dishoveled. It didn't bother me until he did it the second time and then I snapped. Sometimes as Khloe K would say, "a bitch snaps!" and I did. I know I over reacted as when I react I typically do, so it was ok, we have already moved on, but I immediately started saying hurtful things when I snapped and this is something I hate about myself.
I know and he knows (I hope) that I do not mean these things and I always end up feeling even worse afterwards b/c I am disappointed in myself, but in the heat of the moment I just say them. I keep telling myself to do better and I am working on it, but it is definitely still a work in progress. It isn't just my role as a wife either, it is in all my roles EXCEPT being a mommy. I had a moment of self reflection while reading this blog post this morning and I know this is something I need to do better at. I need to be a better wife, to love him more and hurt him less, to think about what I say and don't say it if I don't mean it. Boy, easier said than done!