|First there were 2 expecting a third...couldn't wait!|
Before baby #1 I was feeling extreme excitement to have my baby girl here, but also extreme worry since I had no clue what I was doing. Neither my husband or I had ever even changed a diaper. I was as prepared as I could be. Her room was complete by 25 weeks, I had everything and anything I could think of that I needed for her and we just couldn't wait to meet her. I was hating being pregnant and I couldn't wait for it to be over.
Before baby #2 I felt a complete different set of emotions, other than the excitement which I obviously felt, thank God! My biggest worries were "was my daughter going to be ok?" and I was feeling extremely emotional about life as just the 3 of us ending. We had gotten into a great routine, life was amazing, she was thriving, we were all so very happy. How was this new baby going to change all of that? Was she going to regress, was she going to act out, what was going to change? I was also feeling a lot of emotions about this being the last time I was going to be pregnant. No, I wasn't one of those people who loved being pregnant, but the 2nd pregnancy was a lot more enjoyable and I just felt a little bit sad that it was going to be the last time I would feel a baby kicking in my belly. The emotions I felt before delivering Miles were so extreme compared to the emotions I felt before having Gianna. Yes, I knew the sleepless nights wouldn't last forever and I knew to try to enjoy it more, but I was scared about how our family dynamic was going to change.
Once Miles arrived and I held him in my arms, I was so in love, but I was still a little bit scared about how this little being was going to affect our family. When Gianna came to meet him and immediately was a sweet little sister, I felt so at ease and thankful. Our family was complete and it was the most amazing feeling a person could ever feel. Yes, she has moments where she wants all the attention and yes, there are going to be plenty of difficult times with 2 kids 20 months apart, yes it is harder to leave the house, but so far life has been nothing but magical. Gianna has done amazing, she is thriving, she loves her baby brother, she has made zero regressions and to be living this life with 2 beautiful, healthy and HAPPY babies feels so beyond great!