1/19/11 IVF Post
So this morning was our 12th day on the lupron injections. I must say I am doing pretty good with them, a lot better
than I expected. I still have a lot of anxiety and am extremely nervous, but excited too. I thought we would have started our Gonal F injections already, but still waiting to start my cycle. So far my side effects have been some bloating, cramps in my lower abdomen which are very sharp, headaches and feeling tired. I am planning to stop all caffeine once I start the Gonal F shots. I just don’t want to have any regrets. My husband has been great; he wakes up, gets everything ready, ices my tummy and gives me my shots every morning. My hormones are crazy, I cried during an episode of Hawaii 5-0 the other day…haha. I can’t wait to start my cycle so that we can have our schedule somewhat verified. Once I start, I schedule my daily blood tests and ultra sounds and have an idea of the retrieval, insertion and pregnancy test. I don’t want twins, but the part that makes me the most nervous is the doctor only inserting 1 embryo. I haven’t heard of anyone with only 1 that was successful, but I am hoping and praying for the best.
3rd Post from IVF Journal- 1/6/11
So, 3 days until we start the shots and we have yet to receive them. After about 15 phone calls to the mail order pharmacy’s and the nurse to get all the prescriptions straightened out, I think we are almost there and looks like we SHOULD be ok and receive everything sent over night on time. I have to sign for most of the medication, so having it sent to work, hope it is not obvious that a huge package of needles is coming to me, lol. I cannot believe that we are starting this process so soon. I am super excited, but still scared as hell. The financial, emotional and physical stress you go through for this process is something no one could ever understand until you do it. People think it is a couple thousand dollars, a couple shots and wham you are pregnant….WRONG! Continue reading
2nd post from IVF Journal- 1/3/2011
Wow! In less than a week, Saturday the 9th to be exact, we will be starting our IVF process officially- meaning I will be getting shots daily from my nurse, also known as my husband. Last week we took the hour long training and did the test run to make sure the doctor was able to easily insert the embryo. Everything went well, but to say my nerves are starting to get to me would be an understatement. I am trying to act brave and be strong, but I keep crying and just feel so emotional. I don’t know if it is going to get easier or harder once we actually get started on this very strict schedule, but I am ready to get that first shot over with. It has been a struggle, we have spent thousands on our dog, who we just found out needed a 3rd surgery. We had a bird fall out of the sky and hit our car on NYE and I am just trying my hardest to not get sick. They say not to stress during the process, so I am trying to tie up all these lose ends and relax, but I think it is impossible to really relax fully during this. My husband is the best, he is doing what he can to make me feel better and I know at times I am an emotional roller coaster, but I know he is there and he is going to be a great nurse. I am scared as hell, but trying to keep my eye on the prize.
First post from my IVF journal- 12/8/2010
Recently, Allan and I found out that it was going to be very difficult for us to have a baby the old fashion way, it was devastating. As a couple, we have always known we wanted to expand our family sooner rather than later and this news broke our hearts. I know there are other options, artificial insemination (which is the route we knew we would take), and adoption (which just wasn’t in my heart). Ever since I can remember I have known I wanted kids one day. A few years ago I even made a little inside promise to myself that if I didn’t meet the right guy by a certain point in my life, I would do it by myself. Then, God answered my prayers introducing me to Allan and we fell in love. We both had our careers set, we had a beautiful home, and we were in love, why wouldn’t we want to start our family? Continue reading
Our Journey
Some of you who may just have started reading are thinking that we actually just started IVF, but we actually started the process back in January. I wasn’t ready to talk about it publicly, but now I am, so I am now documenting my private journal and our private struggle of having a baby. For anyone who knows about IVF, it is very hard. It takes over your life physically, emotionally, mentally, and economically. It is stressful, painful, expensive, & very strict as far as schedule. You basically don’t have much of a life during the process. I know this is something sooo many couples go through for so many different reasons, so whatever happens, I am now ok with sharing.